Alcatraz Party 08

other than the half-full bottles of wine/barcadi/bartida/tequlia/champagne/baileys and the empty bottles of beer/vodka/champagne that are lined up along my kitchentop, there is no evidence that the party-of-the-year went down at my place 2 nights ago. my floors that were sticky with beer have been vacuumed, swept, mopped. the stale chips have been thrown, the garbage taken out, my bedsheets stripped and laundried, the glasses washed... post-party is just as much work as pre-party. ( though the alcohol shopping bit was terrifying)
the night itself was a night to remember. i had to throw out people from my WG whom I didnt know, who just decided to stroll in and help themselves to the food, i had to throw out people who switched off the lights in my room and decided to get comfortable on my bed. my hair was conditioned with smoke and alcoholic breathe. and there was beer-spilling down my top and guys peeing in public and couples making out in dark corners and the police! but anyway. i staggered into bed just as the sun was coming up and got up again to get ear-plugs because the party was still going strong.
i wonder when will there next be a call for celebration, its unlikely that the contents of the half-full bottles will be finished anytime soon. i suppose they will sit in my kitchen for a long time to come, a reminder of the good times.

Aghhh!! until a couple of hours ago i was under the impression that i had one presentation next week and one the week after next but NO, i have both of them next week, and i have not done ANYTHING! there's the powerpoint slides and the reherasing and the having to present in front of 40 people and 2 profs and IN GERMAN!!! fuckkk.
sigh. I was in the library yesterday (on a 30-degree sunday) and i bumped into thomas the pommes. i told him all abt my exam stress and how the next 3 months are going to be a pretty difficult. Instead of saying smth encouraging or soothing he said, (and i quote directly) "if it doesnt work out we can have many drinks at my place." WHAT THE-??!! does he think i cant do it? the nerve! the audacity!

its so difficult and tiring to keep up with maintaining one's social circle. i have not made an appearance, like ANYWHERE this semester. i didnt even go to my own fac's party. it just gets so tiring and boring after all and i simply cant muster up enough enthusiasm to drag myself to one of these events- its so much nicer watching a dvd at home with a friend you're so familiar with you can be with her in crazy hair and sweatpants. and also cos german parties suck. no seriously. company is of course important but sometimes there's little to do when they play scheiss music.

well, there definitely are repercussions for being lazy. after a few times of saying you wont go, people stop asking. and this is WHY, when now there will be a party at my place, it awkward for me to invite certain people because i've had practically little or no contact to them since the last party (a year ago!) ahh. i mean, i could say that we're just all too busy (which we are) and that some of these people are just not interesting enough for me to make a proper effort (which is actually not too far from the truth. med students are just so urghhh sometimes.) but still. one has to try to integrate oneself again. its a tiring and mostly annoying process, all that small talk and endless conversation about medicine medicine medicine. i mean, come on!!!!